I really don't want to think about this, but it keeps popping up in my head and I actually allowed it to creep in because I like how it feels...but that doesn't make it right, I know.
Maybe this is just me who is being hopeless romantic (again) or is just in-love with the idea of love.
I have pretty much been public about my heartbreak story and my conviction of kissing dating goodbye, but this is just another one of those easier said than done.
I have been liking this guy. He is pretty much the kind of guy I want to be with - God-fearing, convesationalist, fun, caring, family guy... I also have encountered his immaturities and negativities but I have to mention he's good in keeping the balance.
I love talking about him, I always think about him, I enjoy being with him. But you know, the last time I felt this, it became all messed up in the end. I don't want what we have to be destroyed just like that. I just have to stop thinking about him, prevent myself to be caught in a situation where there's just the two of us, and stop talking about him. All these things stir up my heart and emotions, so I have to shut it off because I no longer allow my heart to take control of my life decisions.
Even when the feeling is mutual, I say true love at the wrong time is still wrong. Also, love is not all feelings and emotions...it's aa decision. And so I decide to guard him and myself. No other way :)