major school bash before christmas break. exams are coming one after the another. idk, but i have even more hectic exams last semester but i feel less tired. tskk. i really should have a massage now =P
acads is not going well this week :(( i wanna breakdown. im aiming for CS and as of the latest assessment, my performance last sem was better. craaassshh!! i messed with my math excersice last tuesday. like really messed it up! i was absent in one of the lecture class because i woke up late, so i wasnt able to understand the excersices.
crop sci quiz was not bad.
eng 1 quizes is dissapointing. aarrrgg!!! 6/15 and 4/10. the quiz was hard and lots of us got low marks but its not an excuse.
I WANT EXCELLENCE, then I SHOULD MAKE A WAY TO GET IT.
it wont come my way just like that.
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but why is these things happening??
i feel empty. SPIRITUALLY.
i miss the day, when i am so much on fire with the love of God.
this days, i just feel so neutral. for the past months i feel like my walk with God is stagnant. i want it back. i remember the time when too much forgiveness was given to me that i felt the love of God so much. right now, it just feels normal. i want my real faith.
i want my assured excellence from God:(
i want GOD...
but i dont know what to do :((