Love,
It's been quite sometime since I wrote you a letter. It's been hard lately, you know. This fight of waiting for you and resisting all the false images of you is hard, and it is and only by the grace of God that I am still holding on, patiently waiting for you.
I'm at Singapore - for a week now, actually. The trip is a gift of Ate Mia and Kuya Romel (you'll meet them soon) for my 18th birthday cause they were'nt able to come home during the celebration. You know what, just yesterday I told my cousin that I am excited to get rich, fall in love and travel with you.
I am excited to see the beauty of God's creation with you, my love. But you know what I'm most excited about? Fall even deeper in-love with our Lord, as fall in-love with you :)
Sometimes, I presented myself to God ready to meet you - maybe to atleast ease the struggle, but God will show areas in my life that still needs refining. I am still selfish at times, I get jealous, I am impatient, I still find it hard to be tamed, I'm loud and the list goes on. There are issues and areas in my life that doesn't take 'you' to change or make things better, but it takes God. Thats the beauty of the two of us. When we meet, we won't be two incomple people trying to find completeness in each other, but we will be whole and comple individuals overflowing with the love of God. That's what I want us to have, love for each other out of the overflow of our love to God. Kung baga ung pagmamahal natin sa isa't isa, tira-tira lang nang pagmamahal natin kay God and trust me, that would be more than enough for me :)
I love you, my love. Be strong. I'm praying for you.
Love,
Arla